.:what it's like:.

I hear loud foot steps
I see a worried face..
I see tears fall
And gone without a trace
I hear a song so soothingly low
I'm in someones arms
He won't let me go
My heart aches, I'm in pain
The person with me screams in vain
I can feel my body start to numb
As the air starts to leave my lungs
I hear his voice screaming my name
I lift my hand and brush his cheek
Don't cry now I'm much to weak
He burries his face in the crook of my neck
As I place my hand behind his head
You must be strong without me to
Your old enough you'll know what to do
I close my eyes and now it's time
My hand falls from his grasp
As he held his hand with mine
I shuddered being scared to find out
What will there be on the other side
I will remember my life without a doubt
I loved you so much but you left me what now
I was left alone in the world to discover just pain
This wasn't your fault it was all mine
For trusting you in the end
I gave my life to just pretend
I will no longer call you boyfriend
You ripped my hearts from my chest
So now what do I live for nothing that's it..
Now as I say goodbye, in the worst possible way
I hope you have a good life I think it's better this way
I'm free from violence, war and sad eyes
I'm no longer a slave to all of your lies
Please just go away and let me die alone
You never deserved me I gave up all hope
I'm not about to die a sad human being
I'm going to smile knowing I was living
God gave me the gift of life and I used it well
Loving one with honesty and nothing to tell
Knowing I didn't commit any crimes
Against gods will in his very eyes
A smile forms upon my pale face
You bite your lip confused by my reaction
Bid me well for my time has come
Twas the night of christmas eve
Thus the stars shung so bright in the sky
What a perfect night to die..
The man above you held your hands in his
As your life swept away before his very eyes
Sadness filled his heart and never stopped flowing
He'd have to live with this forever knowing..
your haunting figure planted in his mind
forever lost in a river of memory for all time...